what means the most

We run thru this life it seems - chasing after a check list of dreams - never seeming to have enough time to do the things that bring us happiness that bring us laughter. Well some time ago I stopped and decided to slow my pace and start doing more of the simple stuff that means the most to me. Because in the end its what means the most in our lives that defines our life... How are you spending your time - how are you living your life?!

What means the most to me.... Mornings on the mountain with fresh pow - playing just dance with Sadey - road trips with two aussies - hearing my name being called (Moo How) by a special monkey - tubing with chuckie I mean Mady - an ice cold can of ginger ale - adventures with my Ruby - sinning in Vegas with bestie brit - causing trouble with jess toop leah klabo and amy botnen - coffee date with bee - lake time with my brothers - hunting with clark (my father) - a beer ok I mean beers with Kelcey at the nite owl - laughing with my cousin britt - skiing with kali and nikki - talking chelsea and nuggets with katie - catching up with jacks and da - random run in-s with beck - chaos in the cities with the knitting circle -memories of hollister and hollywood - luke the hunk smiling - twins and beers with travis - jillian in the morning with jilly - trips with mom - bonding with sabrina - music sharing with yanni - partying with members of the class of 99 - buffalo wild wings with dee dee - family gatherings - eating lunch with gramps - taylor time -tea with granny - happy hour with renee and shelley - checking wireless with karla - english class with mr swegarden - time away from it all with my nikon - garlic bread off the grill - flip flop tan lines - kato trips back when - exploring life - meeting new people making new friends - indian summer evenings at oxbow - and the list could go on and on...

We all need to stop and realize the things the people that means the most to you and your life. To look at your life and start wanting and needing the things and people already in your life instead of feeling like you are missing out that you have to go in quest of something or someone. Your life in this moment now is filled with more meaning than you can possibly think of. New flash the grass isn't always greenier on the other side! What means the most to YOU! Figure it out and start spending more of your time doing just that and with the people that matter in your life. Start living your dream - your life NOW!

pimples and letting go

Letting go... It just might be the hardest task us humans have to do in this life. We grasp so tightly to the change we don't want to accept - the love that we have lost - the dream we had to give up - the friendship that we out grew - the death of someone we can't live without. Letting go it seems so simply easy yet the hard fact is it can take everything we got every ounce of strength to painfully let go. And once we have done it - it well doesn't mean you have let it go forever its like those pimples that just show up. You find yourself washing and scrubbing everyday and taking care of yourself only to wake up one morning and find a black head or a white head right in the middle of your forehead and you find yourself HOW in the HELL can that be? Letting go is like that in my eyes - you think you have put it behind you you think you can move on move past and you find yourself once again with the mother of all pimples. Which leads you to think will I ever be able to let this go. Will I ever be able to escape this will I ever be able to out run this. We can take all the precautions in the world but the truth is sometimes a pimple is just going to surface. We something just have to deal with it and accept it that no matter how hard it is to let go its part of life and we will just learn and grow from it.

Letting go isn't pretty. But have you ever found a pretty pimple? They may be ugly -but they do go - they may leave a scar but we heal. And all we can do is wash and scrub and take note they just may come back without warning or reasoning.

Birthday Shout Out to my MOM

Its a must to do... It has to be said... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Mom!!! Can't wait to celebrate with you and the rest of the crazies we call our family this weekend! We have much to party about if you ask me!! Til then I hope you enjoy your day!! Olive Juice!

365 days

Look closely at these faces can you see the change two photos from before the Big C came into our lives and two photos after the Big C decided to make its new home inside of my mom. Before the Big C yes we were a family. Yes we could be found most of the time laughing, smiling and having a good time. Yes we found the glass of life half full. Yes we enjoyed to be in each other's presences. But 365 days later after we were told Mom has stage 4 breast cancer and its spread to her spine and liver we are different, we have changed. 365 days ago we all had hair. By August 4 out of 6 would not. (let's be honest Dad has already lost most of his). We have grown as people and as a family. We have grown closer, we have slowed down and enjoyed the moment. We are taking notice of the simple little blessings, we find ourselves grateful to just be here. 365 days later we are stronger. we are more compassionate. we are more forgiving. we are more caring and understanding. The rushes to get things done has left us and in its place the peace of just enjoying life. Its funny how it takes a thing like cancer to get us to stop and make the changes we need to make to truly LOVEthisLIFE. Its funny how death - just the thought of it can change how you view life and live life. For 365 days we have been living like we were dying. And let me tell you its been the best living we have done.






Yea there have been some out of our hands scary moments, moments that were filled with fear, worry and what if's - but there were also moments that we found laughter that made our gut ache and huge smiles across our faces that I swear wrapped around the back of our heads. Yea there were times we wish the heaviness in our hearts and tears in our eyes would escape us but there were also times where our hearts felt like they could burst from the love support encouragement friendship we were given by oh so many we could never name. 365 days later we have changed, we are different. But I believe those 365 days have forced us to grow and become BETTER - MORE. The greatest personal growth often comes from the hardest of lessons the most difficult of times. We have found we can bare more than we think. We are capable of more than we know. We are stronger than it looks. 365 days later we are left amazed how one woman could teach us so much more about life. We are left amazed that she is now teaching us the lessons we so needed to learn - how to live. how to fight. how to not give up. We are left amazed at her will, her strength, her hope, her faith, her determination. 365 days later we find the honor, the gift, the blessing it is to still have her here, to simply still call her MOM.

Father's Day

Being that it is Father's Day I figure today would be a great day to make a blog post about the guy that I call Dad. I have been told more than a time or two that I look just like him and act just like him. Being a Daddy's Girl since birth I am not surprised. My father can be a little out there and life is always an adventure with him. He is always doing something wild crazy or saying something that makes us laugh or at times roll our eyes. You just never know what he will be doing or saying. He's the type of guy that lives in the moment. He works hard and yet knows when to kick back and have a great time. He fills our lives with support and encouragement in a way that he can only do. He has been a great blessing in my life and I am honored to call him Dad. So Happy Father's Day to my Dad - Clark... I mean Mark.

Welcome Max Plante

It must be the year of babies! I was told of some very happy news this afternoon my good friends Bridget and Dan welcomed into the world their new baby boy Max Plante! He was a little whopper at 8 lbs 6 oz. and 21 inches. Already got to see a picture of the happy family and let me tell you big brother Will is just as cute as his little brother! And Bridget well looks nothing like she just gave birth to a baby the size of a watermelon out of a hole to size of a lemon. What a rockstar! She was looking like she was meeting up for drinks drop dead beautiful- like always. I will be looking forward to seeing you all very soon! Til then congrats and know that I am sending my very best as well as happiness and love to you all!

if she's anything like...

Its funny how fast life can change how it can begin and end in one single moment. How one day someone enters or leaves your life and you find yourself wondering what life before that moment was like. The Goldmann family grew by one this weekend as you know, and I think we are all trying to remember what life was like before this bundle of pink arrived. We all sit in aww with smiles plastered across our faces and our hearts bursting with happiness pride and love. Life will truly never be the same again for us. These are the moments that make living life so great these are the moments that make being a part of a family so special. I have no clue what life has in store for Taylor but I do know she will be surrounded by many who will always think she's a blessing. She will be spoiled with love and prolli just a few (only a few- or at least that's what we will tell ourselves) items.

If Taylor is anything like her Daddy she will be competitive, caring and a perfectionist. If she's anything like her Mommy she will be simply at ease in her own skin, thoughtful, and accepting. If she's anything like her aunt michelle she will be a little crazy wild and free spirited. If she's anything like her uncle jac she will be focused, funny and quiet. If she's anything like her Gramps she will be hard working, a little out there and the life of the party. If she's anything like her Granny she will be loving patience and book smart. No matter who she's like or if she's just completely all Taylor in her own way we will think your pretty neat and we will love you just for simply being you.