Too Much

Every once in awhile I will get wrapped up in life. I find myself short of breath when I think of the future that lies before me. The choices I have to make the places I want to go the people I want to see the things I want to do. And suddenly I feel like there's not enough time. Suddenly I find myself rattled with the fact that I can't do it all. Which drives me nuts. Life can be overwhelming can't it... And this is coming from a single gal living life in the mountains so I can't even imagine what its like to be someone who is a mother of three or a business woman working 60 hour weeks. Or in that case a college student a high school student. It seems like life's pressures escape no one. Matter what age what they are doing or where they are at. Even the simplest of people find themselves with such moments in their lives.

So what do we do... When life gets to be too much. When we find ourselves stressed. When we are surrounded by chaos. When we are overwelmed and simply don't know what to do... I had someone ask me what to do to handle stress. And the truth is there really isn't a how to guide that is perfect. The truth is we each have to handle life's pressures in our own way.

But what I do is take a deep breath. I inhale and exhale and just focus on my breathing. And I remind myself I can handle this. I was given this life because I am capable and strong enough to live it. That even though I feel lost or over my head I was given this to rise above. To learn and grow. And I think back to all those moments where I thought I never would overcome. Never succeed. Never finish... And remember that I did!

But what I find we all need is an escape. A positive healthy escape in this life. Some bake or cook. Some fish or hunt. Some read or sew. Some garden or build. Some play or workout. Some its found in the company of the ones they love. It could be one single thing we do or a 1000 little things. It doesn't matter. Its just a place stress worries pressures and racing thoughts don't follow us. For me its found when I am surrounded by nature. Its found when its just me and my nikon...alone. Prolli why I always venture off by myself. I have my time with others and love it but sometimes my escape is taking in the beauty of nature in silence.

We all have to recharge the batteries. We all just have to stop thinking sometimes and that's what having an escape is all about. For I have learned that sometimes the answers to our problems are solved by simply removing ourselves away from it...most of the time we just well think too much. Stress too much. Worry too much! We are simply doing too much of the wrong thing!

PS i miss you

There's a million people in our life. They walk in and walk out. Pass in and pass thru from the moment we first take our breath in this world and I am guessing will continue til we take our last. Neighbors. Teachers. Friends. Classmates. Teammates. Coworkers. The list goes on and on. Think of all the people your life comes in touch with just on a given Monday or Thursday. Some play minor roles others major roles yet some we don't even know have passed thru.

What gives a persons life meanin to our life. And why is it some have more than others? Why is it that others we never miss never notice while others we count the days til they walk into our life again?

I have been blessed beyond my years in this life! My life has been touched by some amazing souls. I have been loved my many. Yet I trealize that havin the love of one doesn't mean it replaces the love of another. I know humans have a heart big enough to find and make room for more love in their lives. And thou I am grateful for new souls in my life it doesn't mean I don't miss the ones who no longer are there.

I am glad I don't have to pick because if it meant having one or the other I am not sure what I would do. The past vs the present vs the future. What I trust in is the fact there's a meaning and reason for people to be in your life... And the when where and how plays a role in that too. But I still miss faces I no longer see. I still miss voices I no longer hear. I still miss convos with these people I no longer see or talk too... Yet my love remains. Whether they have left this world or just have left my life... I am grateful for the time I spent with you. And I am honored to have had you in my life. PS... I miss you!

Keep Going

This life is full of reasons to want to stop. To give in. To take the easy path. To quit.

We are surround by failure. Struggle. Pain. Sickness. Death. Sorrow... We know of such stories in the lives around us as well as in our own lives, Yet we endure. We try. We carry on. We keep going. When everything around else falls apart we find the strength from only God to keep going. To keep breathing. To keep living.

For thou there's much sorrow. Much struggle. Much failure. Much sickness... There's also much overcoming. Much enduring. Much to keep goin in this life. Tonight I pray for those who are in the darkness. I pray for your strength in this life's trial. I pray you walk with grace and pride.. That you continue to fight for this life. And may you be in the company of those who support you and love you. A special prayer to my college friend Jess who is a mother of two small cute boys battling cancer. May she fight and win! My thoughts are with you and your family! And may you keep going!

its a ME world

Sometimes its easy to get wrapped up in our lives. To see the small picture as the big picture. We see and think me me me I I I. Its what's goin on in our life that we focus on. Its our success our challenges our changes our sorrow our failures and problems. And in some ways that's the way life should be and lived.

But when is it too much. When is it too much me me me. Too much I I I?!

There's more to this life than who we are. There's more to this life this world then just the me and I. Do I know what that is... Well no still working on it but I am positive there is.

So until I figure it out I am goin to start listening more instead of talking. I am goin to start seeing what is truly there instead of looking casually. I am goin to understand instead of judge. I am goin to give instead of take. I am goin to put others before me. I am goin to pay more attention to the fact that we all carry regret pain trails and failures with us. That sometimes there's more then what meets the eye. and these people are awaiting for someone to listen. To understand. To give. To help.

I feel that if we live a life with a little less me me me and a bit more for others so much can be accomplished. So much can be done for the good of humanity and this life and this world!! It is a me world yes... But in order for things to happen and change it all starts with a me taking the step and doing!!

Mondays...

Most have the Monday blues. Many think of Monday as their least favorite day of the week. To me... I heart Mondays! Maybe its because I enjoy each day of the week the same OR maybe its because how and where I spend my Mondays.

Mondays are spent with my K2's on Big Mountain. Mondays are my day to connect with nature. To shut off and out the chaos of everday life and just enjoy the moment.

Today I spent my Monday on the slopes like I do every Monday...and hope how I love my Mondays! I was given an added bonus a couple inches of fresh pow pow... With gifts like that how can a person NOT look forward to Mondays!!

An I.O.U.

I think of the things and places my eyes have seen. The beaches of Australia, the mountains of Montana, the prairies of North Dakota just to name a few. I think of the lives that have touched and changed my life. The laughter I have shared with oh so many. The smiles that have formed acrossed my face. The love that has been given and received. The moments of my life... Where I will go and where I have come from.

Why have I been given so much?? Why has my life been so kind?? Why is it all these amazing people walked into my life. What did I ever do and more importantly how in the world will I ever show such gratefulness and thankfulness. How do I pay back what has been given to me.?? For now its simply an I.O.U. With hopes one day I will be able to give back what has been given to be... Its not just one moment one place nor one person... My entire life I realize is one big I.O.U.

Sometimes.

Sometimes I find myself wanting to hear your voice. Sometimes I just want to see your face. Sometimes I just want to call you up. Sometimes I just want to meet you for a beer. Sometimes I just want to sit in silence and just listen music or take in the outdoors. Sometimes I think of you and wonder what you are doing. Sometimes I miss you. Sometimes I wonder if you miss or think of me too. Sometimes I wonder if you will ever forgive me. Sometimes I wonder if you will ever let me back into your life. Sometimes remembering is just too much... of recalling what once had been and how time has changed. Sometimes I wonder if our paths will ever cross again. Sometimes I wonder if the phone will ever ring. If I will hear your voice. If I will see your face. If I will meet you for a beer. I wonder if we will ever get pass the mountain that is between us. I have faith that one day we will. Because I just can't imagine a living life with no regrets without you my friend in it.