Wednesday, February 27, 2008
I truly believe that life falls into place. That there is a reason why we are on certain paths in this life, why we have to go thru certain stages, experiences, moments, falls, tears, laughter, smiles. I would be lying if I said that I am not struggling with where I am at this moment in time. I question things daily, and often find myself over thinking things. I know we all carry our own hardships and negative demons in our minds and those tend to effect our life right now. Life wouldn't be life if we didn't. Just in the same breathe we would have no idea how to judge beauty if we haven't seen ugly or unpleasent. We would not know true happiness unless we experienced sorrow and saddness. We would not know the value of a life until you have loss or the worth of a smile unless you have shedded a few tears. You wouldn't know the power of dreams, dreaming and reaching your dreams unless you have gone thru falling and failing. You would not be able to know yourself or find yourself unless you have been lost or unsure. These are the things that make life make sense. That give us hope, faith and belief that there is a bigger picture than what we can see right now. LOVEthisLIFE and Trust YOUR Journey... two sayings/store brand that have helped me see the bigger picture. That has helped me hang on and let go.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I am spending my Sunday on the mountain with snow falling softly down from the sky. There is something completely life changing when standing outside with nature in slience. It is so quite here, which brings such inner and outter peace to a crazy and wild world. You can't help but to pause and take in your surroundings. You realize in that moment of peace and serenity that this is what life is all about. To just breath and take it all in. As I took a deep breath and felt the crisp air fill my lungs and refresh my soul, I realized how blessed I am and how grateful I am to be here, to be everywhere I have ever gone. I hope know matter where you are in this world you can stop and take life in, know and feel the blessings of being right where you are.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Since I arrived on the slopes of the FISH, one trail has always made my stomach turn...BIGHORN. The 65 to 70 degree angle drop when looking down to see what you have to ski or ride to get to the bottom...that sight alone is enough to make you re-think and choose another trail to ski or ride. Today I decided to conquer this slope, as I stood up on the very top and looking down I thought to myself..what am i doin? this is crazy... So after about 5 mins of me talking myself into goin and at the same time out of goin i finally just pushed myself over the edge.... With my friend Costa looking on and hearing me scream, yell, laugh and celebrate i did the one run that brought a feeling a fear every time i skied past it. I stopped at the very bottom and looked up to what I just accomplished. A feeling of pride, joy and happiness swept over me and I found myself smilin' and lovin this life even more. With myself saying.. I DID IT! The view from the top always brought fear yet this amazing view because it made you feel like you were on the top of the world. As I looked up, I found an even better view. A view that stood for so much more that conquering the trail known as BIGHORN. So many things in this life test us, challenge us, change us, disappoint us, fail us, and fear us... I know what its like when you feel like you are fighting an up hill battle and when you feel like the fear of doin is too much at times. However I now know that facing the things that fear us the most are in fact things that we can conquer, accomplish and succeed if we have enough faith and strength to just push ourselves over the edge. You scream and yell alittle but before you know it...you did it. We all need to have things in our life that fear us...and we all need to know that we hold the tools within us to over come those fears.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
I have found living life on the mountain and working for a resort means that most of the time i am giving up the normal person's kind of week. For example in everyone else's world its a Tuesday nite, in my world its Friday. i have never been normal so why would i ever have a normal person's work line up. i am banking that one day hopefully in the near future i will find myself a grown up job...one that gives me a true saturday and sunday and maybe even vacation time. til then i am just being a ski bum. i have never been in a hurry to do things at the times that someone normally does things. Look at my college days...most have them last for 4 years...i was 4 years deep and still didn't have a major when all my friends were graduating and getting jobs. When i finally came around to graduating most of my friends were getting married, buying houses and starting a family. My under grad and grad years lasted from 1999 to 2007...it took me a long time but i found something along that journey that makes all the difference...MYSELF. i am a confident single funny positive loving gal who knows that someday her prince will come but isn't waiting for him to start the life she has always wanted to live. I have been blessed with a family and friends that in a word are amazing. They bring to my life all the things that at times i might feel that i am missing. All together they are my reason...they are all my reasons. Love to you all.!
Monday, February 4, 2008
In my 27 years of life i have found myself in some already amazing places, surrounded by people that i am so blessed to have along with me on this crazy ride we call life. Most of the time i have no clue what i am doing with my life or where i am going, yet i feel i have always ended up right where i belong. As of right now i am in Whitefish Montana living life as a ski bum, and wondering whats next. If i am completely honest i am hoping that in the near future i will find myself back downunder and living on the coast in Australia. Til then i am capturing life behind a lens, Kaye Gold Photography hopefully up and running soon. Thou i have no clue where life will take me, i trust in the plan that is laid out before me and look forward to the places i will go and the people i will meet and of course all those that i will ALWAYS take with me (in my heart).
So i have joined the world of blogging, thanks to my friend--Bee. Since life has happened, and distance is in between us. I figured this way is the best way to keep in touch and up to date. I am new at this but I am positive my computer nerd skills will kick in and I will be a master at this blogging thing in no time. So til then bare with me.