Dear Taylor

Its the start of the month of October, which is also breast cancer awareness month. To tell you the truth I never really paid much attention to the pink in the fall. But last year that all changed, I went from having basically NO PINK in my closet to now having so much I have no idea what I am going to do with it... do i need another tee or crew supporting breast cancer... UM the answer will ALWAYS BE YES. This got me all thinking. Of the year we have had since last October. The biggest change and the of course the best change is that you are now here. DUH you would be the best... but you are too young to understand or even know what you being here has brought. So today I woke up and said I am going to write a blog to my little asian birdie - Taylor so I don't forget and most importantly that someday you can come to this blog site and read this post and know just how TRULY SPECIAL you are.

You see before you came into the picture your Granny got really sick. And she needed will and determination to fight to keep fighting to live. Then something happened she was told she was going to be a Granny... because you were on your way to our lives. You were the strength she needed. You were the will to live and never give up. Granny was bound and detemine to LIVE to see YOU, Taylor. I want you to know the impact you had on her life... I know Granny would have fought regardless but you were the dream the gift that Granny has wanted since your mommy and daddy got married. She wanted a grandbaby... and thankgod it was your parents that had you... for at the time your auntie chelle was in NO PLACE to have one of her own... and between you and I - i love to just spoil you buy you way too much love you to pieces and the give you back... as much as i love you i love you even more that its not be who has to deal with you when you are out of control crying and unhappy... but that doesn't mean i love you any less it simply means your auntie is not ready to have kids (haha). so bless your parents hearts they decided to have you... and you couldn't have come at a more perfect time.

Once you arrived you began to heal a family wound that cancer brought to all of our lives. You did this by simply being YOU. So always know that you just being you is and always will be way more than enough... how do i know... well because you made all of our lives better by just being here. You are one loved little girl. By your parents. by your gramps and your granny. by your uncle jack and your aunt chelle. You have brought smiles to our faces. and so much love into our lives. You are our bundle of hope. For before you were born you were the hope Granny so needed and when you arrived you were hope wrapped in love that life even in times of uncertainty provides us with blessings with gifts with reasons to LOVEthisLIFE at ALL TIMES. And now you are still that same hope that our tomorrows will be brighter than our yesterdays. That life will always give us just what we need to live it... This life gave us YOU. So ya their may be some faces that look at you a bit differently because we know just the blessing you are in our lives... we know what you brought us when you came... we know what your life your being here has brought to your Granny. (on a side note i would milk that for what its worth with that Granny and Gramps of yours... they would give you the moon... don't worry i will explain and teach you what i mean about milking...not cows either). We are so very glad you are here... and that now i have yet another girl to buy all sorts of pink for... i am sucker for that color now...

So Tay... thank you... for all you have done without even having a clue. One day I hope you come to this site and read this blog and know that there is nothing you can't do... you have already healed the lives of your Goldmann family. You have already gave your Granny the strength the hope the will to keep fighting but more importantly to keep living and never give up. Those are some pretty big time accomplishments for someone who at the moment has no teeth and wears a diaper... i can only imagine whats in store for you in the life that lays before you... you little one are going to rattle even the stars.