For GRANNY

October is a hard month at times but its also one of my favorite months. Today is my grandmother's birthday and next thursday we will remember her life here on ending on Oct. 20th. I spend alot of October thinking of a woman who I was so blessed and honored to call Granny. Gosh do I miss her. I often just long to hear her english tone voice and to be embrace in one of her hugs of love. I miss sitting down and having afternoon tea with her, I miss going to get the mail and finding a letter from her. I MISS her letters... her words... her random stories about the weather the birds just about life. I miss getting clippings of the paper she cut out just for me thinking I might want to read and see. She was such a

thoughtful kind and caring lady. She always had the time even if she didn't she made the time for my brothers and I. Her family was what truly number one to her - she loved us all together. she loved seeing our smiles and hearing our laughs. To this very day years after she has been gone I still look around for her when we all gather - i still truly think I will see her that she will appear - walk in to the room like she always did and say "hey there kiddo." I wonder if thats how it will always be...

She had a special way about her - she had this amazing calming zen to her. She just made you feel good about yourself. Comfortable in your own skin. She had this way of washing your worries stresses failures mistakes away and just seeing you. She was grace. She was kindness. She was strength. She was love. She is who I want to be just like... half Granny and half my mother... Two of the greatest women I know. When we gather thou I look around and notice that she's still with us the very best of her is still here living and breathing in my aunts Renee & Shelley and in my father Mark. She has passed down her greatest gifts her personality traits... its seen in how my aunt Shelley gives hugs, in the love my aunt Renee shows, in the smile on my dad's face... Its when I miss her the most I see these traits come out in my father and aunts almost like she's here...love is like that it never leaves us. Love reminds. We continue to miss you, Granny and we always will til I see you someday --- until then we gather as a family - we smile. we laugh. we make memories knowing how proud you would be that we all remain so close... You taught us the things that matter and to always hold onto those things no matter where this life takes you.... FAMILY... I am proud today and always to be a Goldmann. I am proud to be your grand-daughter. And know that when someone tells me you're just like Granny- I smile with joy and pride... HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANNY(oct 12th). I hope somewhere you are enjoying a hot cup of tea with Great Granny and Olivia. Sending my love to you always.