You ever find yourself looking at your life from the outside and thinking wait wait wait...how did i get to this exact spot?? This is not how I pictured it turning out...yet you stop and think even harder and realize just how it happened your footprints led you right to this moment you can re-trace them step for step...decision for decision choice for choice. You realize in that moment what you thought was the right path to take words to speak choice to make now ends up being a fight with yourself of "WHAT WERE YOU THINKING??". Regrets we all live with them - I will admit I do carry few but the ones that I carry are well huge. Huge in a way that even moving forward I am unsure I will ever be able to make them right or at least patch them up so they can heal. I know myself all too well when I mess up its a big mess when I make mistakes they are well the big ugly ones. Yet you can see just how you came to the moment of truth and picked wrong. I have hope that my future will right these wrongs but I am not certain they will. I can only hope that I will learn and grow from them. Become more and a better person from them. Does it scare me that thru those mistakes and regrets I might have missed out on some major life realities. life events. life moments. life thougths.emotions.feelings. In a word YES. But so want to believe and stay committed to the saying life finds a way if its meant to be. The hard part is letting it go for now. That's the hard part the letting go part. Worried that it won't work out the way you so badly want it too...Trusting in life's plan when well at least at the moment you think you know what is best for you.
Most times I have no worry at all with letting go and trustng life its those huge things that really matter to me that i feel my life is less without those are the ones that get me.That eat at me and I can't seem to trust life with... Sometimes I think life would be better with a manual. But then again how boring would it be. I hate that feeling of wasting time when its so clear you know what you want...let here you are not taking action to make it a reality - you are waiting for life to present it...sometimes i think that i wait and wait then kind of forget its my name being called over the loud speakers when what i have been waiting for finally arrives.That's pretty tyical of me zoning out and missing it. The other very typical thing is me making all the wrong moves and saying all the wrong things. Its pretty classic of me to finally be given the green light only to find out I forgot to put gas in the car. Which usually domino effects into everything else that could go possibly wrong...its pretty humorous how it all usually plays out for me. Even I have to find the humor in the fact that I am not graceful at life's big moments at times. I get nervous. I get scared. I forget my lines. I forget my thought process. I go from relying on my strengths at all times to suddenly putting all my weight on my weaknesses. Maybe someday I will get it right. Maybe someday I will get better at this whoel trusting in life. As much as I hate not being in control i realize its good for me... I hate it and I hate that I know its good for me...but I also know I need more of it. There was a time when I lived life outside of my comfort zone and I have never felt so well comfortable. Now I believe I have spent too much time in my comfort zone and its gives me the chills when I think of stepping outside it... Yet I know it must must must be done. Its a scary feeling taking a step in the dark not sure of your footing esp when you stumble - trip when its light out. Well here's to living outside your comfort zone and to trusting in life's plan for you....
"More than anything I want to trust in a journey that I don't understand."
"I write entirely to find out what I am thinking & feeling, what I am looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear."
"Loving you changed my life. It should come as no surprise that losing you has done the same."
"I am living proof that a shattered heart can still beat.:
"I am living proof that a shattered heart can still beat.:
LOVEthisLiFE
- Michelle
- "Life lies in the JOURNEY not the Destination." Everyday I awake to embrace the day I have been given. Thru times of struggle and in happiness--I find reasons each and everyday to LOVEthisLIFE.
Every story is one to be heard....
"You have been given the chance to live, so LIVE."
"Your soul knows the geography of your destiny. Your soul alone has the map of your future. Therefore, you can trust this indirect, oblique side of yourself. If you do, it will take you where you need to go. But more importantly it will teach you a kindness of rhythm in your journey."
"Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly, your wholeness when you are broken, your innocence when you feel guilty and your purpose when you are confused."
"I may not have gone where I intended to go - but I believe I have ended up where I needed to be."
"When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down 'happy.' They told me - I didn't understand the assignment, and I told them they didn't understand life."
"If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars."
"Some people just live life in a way that well seems against the grain - never taking the paved way the easy way never living to the checklist of life...but maybe just maybe they are seeking a little bit more from life."
"All of your life is about growing into your personal best...all of your life is about growing into greatness."
"When something bad happens, you have three choices...you can either let it define you, let it destroy you OR you can let it strengthen you."
"I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders."
"Do one thing everyday that scares the complete shit out of you."
"Try to be like a turlte, at ease in your own shell."
"There is a great mystery that none of us will get until that last breath and EVERYTHING will become VERY CLEAR."
"There is something beautiful about all scars of whatever nature. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with."
"Overcome the notion that you must be regular it robs you of the chance to be extraordinary."
"Too much has been given much is required. You must do something for the greater good to show your gratefulness for the blessings in your life."
"The CHALLENGE of my LIFE is to see how far I can take it."
"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go."
Never ask, "What reason do I have to be happy?" Instead ask, "To what purpose can I attach my happiness?"
"Maybe mistakes are what makes our fate - without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we never veered off course we wouldn't be who we are now."
"The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt."
"Michelangelo said the best way to judge the essential elements of a sculpture is to throw it down a hill and the unimportant pieces will breake away. Sometimes life is like that. It tosses us down a hill. But when we reach the bottom and only the important things are left, that's when our vision clears. That's when we hold on tight to what we know, while hope stirs inside us. It's all a matter of perspective."
"Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm but to add color to my sunset sky."
"Even if I knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces - I would still plant my apple tree."
"Turn your wounds into wisdom and your mess into your message."
"Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness."
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek & find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
"Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared."
"It is impossible to win the race unless you venture to run, impossible to win the victory unless you dare to battle."
"The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his feet."
"When you find the way others will find you. Passing by on the road they will be drawn to your door. The way that cannot be heard will be echoed in your voice. The way that cannot be seen will be reflected in your eyes." -Choose your own journey even if it means taking a path no one ever has.
"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer anwsers."
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