Thursday, January 28, 2010
Pain
"Pain has a way of clipping our wings and keeping us from being able to fly." You know the pain that punches you in the gut, stucks the air right out of you. The kind of pain that haunts you, stalks you, and clinges onto you. The kind of pain that settles in you soul and makes a home. Pain like that just doesn't go away. It is a flood emotion that over comes your entire being. You find yourself wishing and hoping the waves of that pain will just slow enough for you to come up and catch your breathe. You wonder just how long you will be able to hold on. You almost give up all hope that life will from now on be this. But one day you wake up and realize the pain wasn't as strong as it once was. With each breath each moment the intense strong pain weakens. Til one day it has almost vanished from your soul. It finally decided it wasn't in fact its home. Yet pain like that well it never really leaves us. It leaves behind things that reminds us that it was once there. Moments when we remember and reflect and in some ways still can feel that very pain. Because pain like that well it leaves behind scars. Scars that become a part of who you are. We have a choice whether to learn something positive from those scars or to let history repeat itself. The choice is up to you. Pain...pain can be a pain in the *ss.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Its her DAY!
I would like to give a shout to an amazing woman. Someone I am proud to call my aunt and namesake. Someone who lives this life with flair and laughter. She's the girl I admire and look up to. She has a zest for life and loves to just simply live this life to the fullest. From watching her live her life I have gained confidence to follow her lead and just love this life. She's a ball full of fun. Always has a smile on her face. She likes to kick back with a drink or a glass of wine. The room is filled with laughter. And I promise you if you spend 5 minutes with her...you would love her. She's that kind of woman.
Happy Birthday Aunt Shelley. I hope that you have your best days still yet to be. I hope LIFE is GOOD. and you are finding reasons everyday to LOVEthisLIFE...LOVE and LAUGHTER to you always!! Love you
Happy Birthday Aunt Shelley. I hope that you have your best days still yet to be. I hope LIFE is GOOD. and you are finding reasons everyday to LOVEthisLIFE...LOVE and LAUGHTER to you always!! Love you
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Learn, grow, change.
"Growth is painful-change is hard. And there are days you wish it would just stop. Wouldn't it be great to just know. To feel like you finally figured it all out. To just be done. Its the hardest and most wonderful thing about being alive. That & no matter how much you learn, grow and change you are never done." -From Being Erica.
The truth is that as long as your heart is beating and air is filling your lungs...Life is about changing, learning and growing. It will never stop til our life on this earth is thru. We wake up each day and face the possibilty that today could be a great day, a not so good day or a terrible day. We laugh. We cry. We love. We hurt. We fail. We succeed. We are on top of the world. We have the world sucked from within us. We think we have had our best day, then another day comes that tops it.We think we have hit our lowest low and something else happens. We do all of this day in day out without even thinking. Without even realizing most days just how strong, how enduring, how capable the human soul is when it comes to just simply living this life.
We all know of such stories that leave you thinking how did they wake up the next day after this. How do they carry on? I have said it 1,000's of times. And the answer is simply because they had to. Life stops for no one. We carry on. And sometimes that going on is simply waking up the next day. And making it thru the day. There is no manual that truly knows how to live this life. There is no manual that gives us guidence to being...human... In many ways we are the authors' of such a thing. We are writing it as we live. Thru trial-error, happiness-sadness, in our lowest of days and brightest of days. And I say to you...there is no wrong way of living this life. I say to you that your life right now is just how its meant to be. I say to you that your life has value and meaning. I say to you that this dark storm won't last forever. I say to you that you will find growth from this. That you will endure. That you are capable. That you are strong. That you will carry on. Its these life's moments that bring value to our good and best days. Its these life's moments that we realize that life is sometimes painful and hard...but we can be tougher. we carry on. We can learn. We can change. We can grow. Especially in times we never think we are going to make it... WE will.
Living in Whitefish we will go without seeing the sun for days sometimes weeks. We find ourselves engulfed in gloomy clouds. And then a day comes its as simple as the sun rose, and there it is. Like it has never left, like its always been there...And in many ways thats life...out of nowhere we find ourselves living, smiling and laughing...it just happens. And thats the miracle of just being and just living.
The truth is that as long as your heart is beating and air is filling your lungs...Life is about changing, learning and growing. It will never stop til our life on this earth is thru. We wake up each day and face the possibilty that today could be a great day, a not so good day or a terrible day. We laugh. We cry. We love. We hurt. We fail. We succeed. We are on top of the world. We have the world sucked from within us. We think we have had our best day, then another day comes that tops it.We think we have hit our lowest low and something else happens. We do all of this day in day out without even thinking. Without even realizing most days just how strong, how enduring, how capable the human soul is when it comes to just simply living this life.
We all know of such stories that leave you thinking how did they wake up the next day after this. How do they carry on? I have said it 1,000's of times. And the answer is simply because they had to. Life stops for no one. We carry on. And sometimes that going on is simply waking up the next day. And making it thru the day. There is no manual that truly knows how to live this life. There is no manual that gives us guidence to being...human... In many ways we are the authors' of such a thing. We are writing it as we live. Thru trial-error, happiness-sadness, in our lowest of days and brightest of days. And I say to you...there is no wrong way of living this life. I say to you that your life right now is just how its meant to be. I say to you that your life has value and meaning. I say to you that this dark storm won't last forever. I say to you that you will find growth from this. That you will endure. That you are capable. That you are strong. That you will carry on. Its these life's moments that bring value to our good and best days. Its these life's moments that we realize that life is sometimes painful and hard...but we can be tougher. we carry on. We can learn. We can change. We can grow. Especially in times we never think we are going to make it... WE will.
Living in Whitefish we will go without seeing the sun for days sometimes weeks. We find ourselves engulfed in gloomy clouds. And then a day comes its as simple as the sun rose, and there it is. Like it has never left, like its always been there...And in many ways thats life...out of nowhere we find ourselves living, smiling and laughing...it just happens. And thats the miracle of just being and just living.
Friday, January 15, 2010
A thanks to you.
I am kind of excited. Sitting at the edge of my sit. Smiling for no reason. Showing that tad bit more kindness. My head is in the air. My mind is drifting else where... and the best part is... its just because of being in this magical winter wonderland. This is my happiness. This is my peace. This is my life... This is me. So thank you for leading my journey to Whitefish...
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Reasons to LOVEthisLIFE
20 10... the first of 12 months is half ways thru. And oh the excitement it has already brought, yet I can't even imagine what else will be in store for this new year. I have no clue what is to come or what is to come in your lives as well but I hope that no matter what kind of journey we are all on we find reasons to carry on, to endure, to celebrate, to forgive, to let go, to love, to laugh, to smile...and above all find reasons everyday to LOVEthisLIFE.
I have been glued to news about the earthquake in Haiti. I keep reading story after story. Looking at picture after picture. Life is well to be blunt Hell there. Yet even thou there's 1,000 of sad faces filled with tears, there is still life there. And there is still Hope, its in the eyes of those doing all they can to help. Its in a small child that still can laugh and smile. Its in a grateful voice that says thank you. Where there is hope there is life. And where there is life there is also hope.
I have been glued to news about the earthquake in Haiti. I keep reading story after story. Looking at picture after picture. Life is well to be blunt Hell there. Yet even thou there's 1,000 of sad faces filled with tears, there is still life there. And there is still Hope, its in the eyes of those doing all they can to help. Its in a small child that still can laugh and smile. Its in a grateful voice that says thank you. Where there is hope there is life. And where there is life there is also hope.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Learning.
"In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into the crystal clearness. Our life is a long and arduous quest after truth." -Mahatma Gandhi
Its human nature to want answers to our thoughts, feelings and especially questions. We strive for reason, for understanding, for wisdom and knowledge. In all areas of life: in friendship, love, work, health, sickness, death, life...and the list goes on. We hope to find meaning in words-in actions. Yet most of the time it still just doesn't add up. I have found that I search and search for words to describe how I am feeling. I search for the right things to say and to do. But sometimes life throws us a curve - we have moments of darkness - we make mistakes - we fail - we struggle - we stumble - we have hard lessons that sometimes just must be learned. Its in these moments that well I find myself struggling. When I have made a mistake. When I have made a big OOPS. When I have failed. I can forgive rather quickly in most situation but have the darnest of times forgiving myself. Letting myself off the hook. I find myself not settled until I have been forgiven. It just eats and eats at me. I don't know how to live with regret. I don't know how to not let such things eat at me.
But like happiness and well life sometimes things aren't fully meant to come together to the point where we understand. And maybe the same goes for regrets. We aren't meant to live a life without them. They are meant to stick with us to remind us. To help us learn from our mistakes, from our failures, from our struggles and stumbles. Some life lessons esp the hard ones we aren't ever meant to forget. Thou we search for answers... Sometimes such lessons are learned to help grow and to realize that this life is about learning and growing. And sometimes the greatest of lessons are the hardest of things to really learn and in many ways live with. And we carry around those regrets and lessons to make sure we never have to repeat the same mistake and failure.
"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life." -Albert Camus
Its human nature to want answers to our thoughts, feelings and especially questions. We strive for reason, for understanding, for wisdom and knowledge. In all areas of life: in friendship, love, work, health, sickness, death, life...and the list goes on. We hope to find meaning in words-in actions. Yet most of the time it still just doesn't add up. I have found that I search and search for words to describe how I am feeling. I search for the right things to say and to do. But sometimes life throws us a curve - we have moments of darkness - we make mistakes - we fail - we struggle - we stumble - we have hard lessons that sometimes just must be learned. Its in these moments that well I find myself struggling. When I have made a mistake. When I have made a big OOPS. When I have failed. I can forgive rather quickly in most situation but have the darnest of times forgiving myself. Letting myself off the hook. I find myself not settled until I have been forgiven. It just eats and eats at me. I don't know how to live with regret. I don't know how to not let such things eat at me.
But like happiness and well life sometimes things aren't fully meant to come together to the point where we understand. And maybe the same goes for regrets. We aren't meant to live a life without them. They are meant to stick with us to remind us. To help us learn from our mistakes, from our failures, from our struggles and stumbles. Some life lessons esp the hard ones we aren't ever meant to forget. Thou we search for answers... Sometimes such lessons are learned to help grow and to realize that this life is about learning and growing. And sometimes the greatest of lessons are the hardest of things to really learn and in many ways live with. And we carry around those regrets and lessons to make sure we never have to repeat the same mistake and failure.
"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life." -Albert Camus
Sunday, January 10, 2010
14 hour cookie = NO SO GOOD
Ever just have one of those days where you find your life was a movie people would be rolling over with laughter. Lately it seems that's my life. Two nights ago I fell asleep on my couch at 6pm. When I awoke it was daylight and I was so confused on where I was or what was going on. I looked at the clock and realized it was 11:30am. Yup just a quick cat nap for me. To make matters even more worse after sleeping for 14 hours PLUS... I had fallen asleep with a cookie in my mouth... um let's just say it wasn't as good 14 hours later.
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