Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Steps Up

How can some be so good at being cold? How can some carry so much hate and pain around with them. How can some never forgive or in the same breath ask for forgiveness? How can some be soo stubborn? How can some think they are so busy with life...only they aren't living it. How can some not see what has always been right in front of them. How can some never find the time but always has the time to do the things that really don't count in the end. How can some speak such hurtful and rude words. How can some well just be... We all have people like this in our lives or at least know of this person in someone else's life... I constantly find myself wondering how can a person be so rude. How can a person who acts in such a manner be proud of who they are.

We all have our days. We all say things at times that well leave us with open mouth insert foot... But for most its rare and it takes a bad day for us to show such rudeness to the people in our lives and the strangers that pass thru it. I have been known to be such a way every once in awhile but well you have a better chance of seeing pigs fly than seeing me be such a person... And if I am such a perso without knowing I hope someone calls me out on it asap.

I don't want to be rude. I don't want my words or actions to ever cause hurt or pain in someone else's life. I don't want to be stubborn when it comes to forgivness...I don't want to hold onto hurt pain or anger. Why keep openin a wound when it can heal. Why not forgive learn move on and grow than to stand still. Its hard to face ourselves when we have done wrong and we know it... But its true growth as a person when you still have the courage to look in the mirror. When you be the bigger person esp when its not you who has to be. When you forgive esp when you have been deeply hurt. When you say your sorry and truly mean it knowin there's a good chance that your words won't change a thing. When you face your problems instead of hiding from them. When you take control of your life- when you take responsiblity for your actions and words at all cost. When you show kindness even when they don't deserve it.

Its not easy being the person that does what is right when you so badly want to play the eye for an eye game. So you close your eyes and take a deep breath and let the control you desire to have over the situation slip out of your hands and into the hands that know the true way. You take a deep breath and let faith wash the hurt away. When you don't know what to do you listen for the one who knows just where to lead you speak to you. You take a deep breath and trust your journey...and realize its not about havin control of the wheel of life whether its your life or another's...you can't make others see what is right in front of them nor can you make them speak the words you want to hear... Life isn't meant to be controlled. Life isn't meant to carry anger hurt and pain like a travel luggage. Life isn't meant to always be perfect...it never is! You can't learn and grow if you are. I don't understand people sometimes and well just like life maybe I am not suppose to understand. Maybe I am just suppose to trust my journey and trust just like there's a reason-a lesson for me being around such things...there's a reason-a lesson for those "some people"... For its their journey that is leadin them to the people they are meant to be thru endless life lessons... And maybe just maybe its me who has to step up for them to learn how to be a bigger person... And maybe just maybe this world would be a bit better off if we all decide to be that person who steps up...

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